so much stuff...lol

ok well to be honest i really dont know exactly what to blog about ...just that im still lookin for a job ...IM IN DIRE NEED OF A JOB...my money is running out! but that's really beside the point... i'm alive..and im grateful for that... just am..:-) i just got done reading Ephesians.. and Jude...both very eye opening books... i think god has already shown me in ways of the kind of people that he warned us about in jude...and well ephesians..well it just lays it out! it really is black and white...there is no grey area...he say's what he says and he means when he says...period...i've nicknamed what people i feel are doin these days to "get away" with living a immoral life... "PAPERCLIPPING" people are paper clipping the bible...i mean think about it..there are things in the bible that he say's "DO NOT DO" eph. 4:25-32 says So stop telling lies. let us tell our neighbors the truth, for we are all parts of the same body. And dont sin by letting anger control you. Dont let the sun go down while you are still angry. for anger gives a foothold to the devil.
If you are a thief quit stealing. Instead use your hands for good hard work, and then give generously to others in need. Dont use foul or abusive language. let everything you say be good and helpful, so that your words will be an encouragement to those who hear them. And do not bring sorrow to god's holy spirit by the way you live. remember he has identified you as his own, guaranteeing that you will be saved on the day of redemption. get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander as well as all types of evil behavior. instead be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as god through christ has forgiven you.

Ok so there you have it.. now read it again...i'll wait.....

well i know as you do that we are all sinners and we will do all these things it IS OUR nature..no excuse but still...but it also says and this is only and just my opinion..but he also says to fight our natural instincts and serve him..right? stand up in our faith and have no fear....well then i really just dont understand how some people can say all these things about god and "oh he loves me even though i do these things.." and " well god would want me to be happy right..well im not happy with my husband so im goin to leave him..."

and even the preachers and pastor's who are allowing people in their church and sayin oh yes god will love you it's ok... well it's not ok ...i mean it says it right there in the bible...so do they "paperclip" the parts where it says these things not to do....they have to know it's wrong...right? i mean wrrrrooong ...right right ?
these are all just thoughts i've had for a while..i guess just still trying to understand things...

ok so i know im not perfect...but i dunno maybe im being realistic...and i dont know if that's a bad thing or a good thing.... i guess maybe im taking what it says in the bible well taking it for what it says... and just that...
and yes i definelty understand what god says in jude about the people can "shipwreck" you ...there where little red warning signs goin off when about 2 years ago i came to know two people and yeah at the time i didnt see the red warning signs or sirens or bells on their toes..... but golly do i see them and hear them now!
but you have to live and learn right?
so i guess that's my spill for the nite...not sure when i'll be back on here it's spring break and im tryin to heal a sick puppy...he just almost has pneumonia...UGHH! is that the pits or what... my poor baby... i hate it when he's sick... you ALWAYS know when your kids realllllllly dont feel good...and i do i hate it... but he is getting better thank you lord ...thank you...
anyways im just tryin to do the best i can right now... there really are so many things that iam fighting...so many worldly evil things...i'am doin better on certain things though....one step at a time i keep telling myself...but i do feel more pain...but in different stages i guess...i mean i realllly am starting to miss things... and the other day..thursday i believe it was ..caine told me that he was starting to get homesick... and he hasnt even got to play with marley...i melted inside...and then i got ANGRY AND BITTER AND MAD...and so i got my pen and paper and just started writing ...different things mostly just feelings and emotions... one that i realized a reallllly havent even began to deal with yet... so that was kinda unselttling ....i've found myself tryin to be soooo focused and for the most part iam but yet sooooo far away it feels... it honestly does not feel right here... i know we are here for a reason...but i feel like im in such a place that im afraid to "get used to it" because then i'll forget where i feel i belong... *shakes head* ok so yes i know... people may say you gotta move on....but well i just cant yet.... i would so love a job right now....so maybe it would ease my mind ..and occupy it somewhere's else ya know.... ok ok whew
nite
jude 2 :20-21...

Krystal