well i guess it shows u how focused i'am ...caine's birthday was on feb 15th..we had to move the weekend after his birthday....so i guess you could say my mind was a lot on the occupied side...which i could let make me really mad and bitter ....but im chosing not to... i do have to say that this year has already been pretty hard on caine...he thought we would have a "birthday party" for him and ....well we didnt get to ...and the look on his face and the sound of his voice... was just heartbreaking... bless him...he deserves better..sooo much better... he has been really good thru all this though... of course the typical arguing and what not...tryin to get that under control...being a mom is by far *the most* challenging job i've ever had... but i've learned so much about myself i cant even find the words...to describe the way i look at the world...and people for that matter...lol as i sit here im listening to caine in his room laughing hysterically at the world's funniest people videos show...it's his fav... and just laughs and laughs... :-) makes me laugh just listening to him... n e ways i just hope and pray that i can give him all the things that he needs....that god intends for him to have...which is my job to give... i just pray with all my heart and soul that i listen to god's teaching and word and live by him ...i pray that my ears be open to his sound ... and still and calm....make me strong lord...make me strong..
till next time
GOODNITE!
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